Saturday, November 08, 2003
[[Wind Beneath My Wings]]
Ohhhh, oh, oh, ohhh.
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way.
You always walked a step behind.
So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strain.
A beautiful face without a name for so long,
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.
Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.
It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.
Did you ever know that you're my hero?
You're everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.
Did I ever tell you you're my hero?
You're everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.
Oh. the wind beneath my wings.
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly away, You let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings
marn! i love this song! esp when sister girly sings it! (: her voice is like... POWER! hahahs. im sooo very tiried. rarr. had a crappy day. stuppid dm. rarr. youu good larrs... im NOT a toy tht youu could pick on. sickening! i hate youu for picking on mee always. youu think i want isit! rarrs. stuppid dm! spoil my whole day. spoil my mood. spoil everything. so what if you are dm?! abuse everything?! i jerk my hand dwn already! still give me that stuppid look and scold me?! i did what youu wana me do rightt?! i rather faint and vomitt then to do it cuz you keep picking on me. i dun carreee if you're reading this. im sorry. im jez being frank. yeash. wharttever. rarr. screams my headd off.-
although i appear crazeh on the outside, im hurtting in the inside. manquevouslikesiao. haiis?!
11:42 PM*
When I'm lost, in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light, to light my way.
When I'm scared, losing ground
When my world is going crazy, you can turn it all around. (yes)
And when I'm down you're there pushing me to the top.
You're always there giving me all you've got.
For a shield from the storm
For a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that's true,
I turn to you. (oooo yeah)
When I lose the will to win,
I just reach to you and I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything,
'Cause your love is so amazing;
'Cause your love inspires me.
And when I need a friend, you're always on my side;
Giving me faith taking me through the night
For a shield (For a shield) from the storm; (from the storm)
For a friend; for a love (for a love to keep me safe and warm)
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you. (I turn to you)
For the strength (for the strength) to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
I turn to you. (ooo yeah oohhh)
For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain;
For truth that will never change;
For someone to lean on;
For a heart I can rely on through anything;
For that one who I can run to;(oooooo) (I turn to you oooooo yeah)
For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love (to keep me safe a warm yeah yeah, I turn to you)
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you. (I turn to you)
For the strength (for the strength) to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do; (everything you do)
For everything that's true;
For everything you do;
For everything that's true,
I turn to you.
5:11 PM*
Friday, November 07, 2003
to that freako IDIOT who hacked into my jie's blog account!whoever you are... PLEASE GETT LOST AND LEAVE HER ACCOUNTT ALONE! yeahhs. and NEVER RETURN BACK TO IT AGAIN!!! you like to postt dirtyy pictures right?! COME TO MEE LARRS. I'LL GIVE YOU A PERFECT BRAINWASH CUZ YOU NEED IT. I'M TELLING YOUU. leave her account alone. frrrreeeaaaaakkkoooo dirty minded person!!! -screams at youu whoever you are.-
if you got the gutts to do that, you should leave your stuppid name there. yeash. freako.
10:55 PM*
loving you drives me to insainIty.
heyas. gosh. O.- i'm sooo sleepy canns? dorts. had band today... yeapps. had oboe lessons today. hahas. i said it was FUN! so much more fun then combine band! hahas. they say im madd? but it's really true! jason like so nice? ._O no wrong ideas LIKE mel and huihong had yeahhs? like he never scold me when i played like rubbish? he even said there's improvment! gosh. im like so happy. -giggles and grinzz!- will be having lessons with him on next friday again! i'm like soooo gona practice my E flat major scale and whatever it asked me to practice. yeapps. i wana play the way he play! gosh? the way he plays the oboe is like the orchestra! -drop jaws!- he said something like had to practice 4 years of rubbish then he managed to get this tone. cool. im not gonna give up! it's like nicer then flute? nortt sure larrs. but i'll choose flute as 2nd instrument if i cann. soooo cool! -grinnz!- im sooo happy so day! whees. before he left he played cannon in d major? it's like... omg. when am i gona be able to play like him? hahas. so yeahhs. he left and i went for combine band and yadayada. left for J8 after that, met up with philbert[stupid kor! hahas], his friend, xx, leeying. yarpps. mel and huihong appeared later. i thot she wana go swimming or something. (: watched the matrix revolution. whatever you spell it. (: sooo funnie lorrs! each time when mr anderson HUGGED triny[spell?] and KISSED[twice only] i'll go philbert and sam! then all of us will start laughing! or i rather each time anyone french kiss and hug. hahas. mr anderson is like shuai? :) ehehehe. sadd. he died in the end. it's nice larrs. should go watch. yeappies. in the machine world rightts? there's this machine which attacks and i think it looks lyk flying mealworms. hahax. -_-" oh yeahhs. this silly boy philbert. gosh! he's sooo funny! i call him kor! no answer. philbert! no answer. STUPID KOR! he'll go huh? then all of us laughh and laugh. love you lotts for making me laughh mans. (: so yeahhs... mum nagged and blahblah... forgot to tell her im watching movie. -bang self aganist wall- where did the sensible me went to?! shld had known better. well. went to airport and blahblahblah. im sooo sleepy. i wana go and sleep le. :) cantt wait for campp! SPEEDLIGHT RAWKSS!!! :) there's band tomms so yarrs... gotta rest early or i'll be late. loveyoualloutthere. (:
//silly boy! heys philbertt. enjoy your time with your darlx. (: thanks for all the laughter. gosh! i really need them. hehehehs.
//moo! heys huili! glad youo're feeling better. (: next time dont care them yarrs? selfish people. yarpps. wuteva u call them. hehs.
//darlx piggy! hey girl! going for campp rightt? (: im the happiest gurl alive? hahas. wuteva. DONT be late for cg arhx. ehehehs.
10:42 PM*
Thursday, November 06, 2003
Clay Aiken
Invisible
What are you doing tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Still in your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive
[Chorus ]
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)
I saw your face in the crowd
I called out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could be what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life
[Chorus ]
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)
I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm screaming
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...
[ Repeat Chorus ]
6:55 PM*
all my thoughts:. if love was meant to be sweet and shouldnt hurtt, tell me why it does the opposite way? where am i gona runn to? i could run aimlessly with no distination or whatever. jez so lostt and stucked within the mudd. a thousand question ringing in my head unanswered. who is gona answer them all for me? the pain. the feeling. i cant fight them anymore. feeling so helpless cuz i cant save myself. does anyone outt there care. ever tried being in my shoes before? being me isnt easy. sick of the high expectation, pressure and stress ive to face in life. whyy cant i jezz live in fantasy? no painn. or even heaven? yeahh. i know the reason of me being here on earth. butt i dun think i could cope with the painn that's killing me. haiis. Lord, be my source of strength. "/
3:38 PM*
> > > A little girl had been shopping with her Mom in K-Mart. She must
have
> been
> > > 6 years old, this beautiful red haired, freckle faced image of
> innocence.
> > > It was pouring outside. The kind of rain that gushes over the top
of
> rain
> > > gutters, so much in a hurry to hit the earth it has no time to
flow
down
> > > the spout. We all stood there under the awning and just inside the
door
> of
> > > the K-Mart.
> > >
> > > We waited, some patiently, others irritated because nature messed
up
> their
> > > hurried day. I am always mesmerized by rainfall. I got lost in the
sound
> > > and sight of the heavens washing away the dirt and dust of the
world.
> > > Memories of running, splashing so carefree as a child come pouring
in
as
> a
> > > welcome reprieve from the worries of my day.
> > >
> > > The little voice was so sweet as it broke the hypnotic trance we
were
> all
> > > caught in "Mum, let's run through the rain," she said.
> > >
> > > "What?" Mum asked.
> > >
> > > "Let 's run through the rain!" She repeated.
> > >
> > > "No, honey. We'll wait until it slows down a bit," Mum replied.
> > >
> > > This young child waited about another minute and repeated: "Mum,
let's
> run
> > > through the rain,"
> > >
> > > "We'll get soaked if we do," Mum said.
> > >
> > > "No, we won't, Mum. That's not what you said this morning," the
young
> girl
> > > said as she tugged at her Mum's arm.
> > >
> > > This morning? When did I say we could run through the rain and not
get
> > > wet?
> > >
> > > "Don't you remember? When you were talking to Daddy about his
cancer,
> you
> > > said, 'If God can get us through this, he can get us through
anything!"
> > >
> > > The entire crowd stopped dead silent. I swear you couldn't hear
anything
> > > but the rain. We all stood silently. No one came or left in the
next
few
> > > minutes.
> > >
> > > Mum paused and thought for a moment about what she would say. Now
some
> > > would laugh it off and scold her for being silly. Some might even
ignore
> > > what was said. But this was a moment of affirmation in a young
child's'
> > > life. A time when innocent trust can be nurtured so that it will
bloom
> > > into faith.
> > >
> > > "Honey, you are absolutely right. Let's run through the rain. If
GOD
> let's
> > > us get wet, well maybe we just needed washing," Mum said.
> > >
> > > Then off they ran. We all stood watching, smiling and laughing as
they
> > > darted past the cars and yes, through the puddles. They held their
> > > shopping bags over their heads just in case. They got soaked. But
they
> > > were followed by a few who screamed and laughed like children all
the
> way
> > > to their cars. And yes, I did. I ran. I got wet. I needed washing.
> > >
> > > Circumstances or people can take away your material possessions,
they
> can
> > > take away your money, and they can take away your health. But no
one
can
> > > ever take away your precious memories...So, don't forget to make
time
> and
> > > take the opportunities to make memories everyday. To everything
there
is
> a
> > > season and a time to every purpose under heaven.
> > >
> > > A friend sent this to me to remind me of life. Hope you enjoy it.
> > >
> > > I HOPE YOU STILL TAKE THE TIME TO RUN THROUGH THE RAIN.
> > >
> > > They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to
> appreciate
> > > them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.
> > >
> > > Send this to the people you'll never forget and remember to send
it
also
> > > to the person who sent it to you. It's a short message to let them
know
> > > that you'll never forget them.
> > >
> > > If you don't send it to anyone, it means you're in a hurry.
> > >
> > > Take the time to live!!!
> > >
> > > Keep in touch with your friends, you never know when you'll need
each
> > > other -- and don't forget to run in the rain!
1:52 PM*
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
im bck. cuz im bored. feel like doing shoutout. so yeahs. here goes nothing.
//huilijie! heys jie! (= you're the greatest! thanks for everything yarrs? i'll always be there for you when you need me kkaes? keep smiling! mei love you lotts!
//timothykor! thanks for everything. from listening to my rubbish to remind me that cuz there's God, life worth living. jez call me or whatever i'll be there for you when you need me yarrs? God bless you always! =)
//philbertkor! hey you! thanks for all the funn joy laughter... (= you silly kor. hehs. anyhows, take care yarrs? excel in yr studies. always make me laugh? hehes. X)
//brother pacer! boo! hey it's me. thanks for hearing me outt that day and telling me that i can come to you for advices yarrs? (= hehes. i trust that you'll NOT breathe a word about it so yeahs.
//adeline! heys my darlx lil piggy. tho i known you for like say... a few months only?
im glad to know you and to have you as one of my follow up person. hehes. must wake up early and dont be late for cellgroup anymore! -wags finger at you- hahas. hope we'll be able to camp together in the same tent. hehes. with sheena. (=
//sheena! heyheys. glad to have your listening ears and cheering me up yeahs? i pray that you'll do well for your exams when the results are outt. ren3 yarrs? left artt only so all the best. must believe in yourself yeahs? after that can relac and play le. and DONT quit torchlight PLEASE i BEG you... -cries- you leave le, then it'll be no funn? i mean yarrs.. it's like tho you werent there for weeks, you still should continue serving yeahs? i duno larrs... but i know when you leave the ministry, im be dead bored. nobody go nutz with. =X well... think twice yeahs? we're shortt of manpower... i'll list all the reasons into one: we need you and dont leave. yeahs. (=
//tiffany! heyhey my silly bearbear! hehes. keep on smiling yeahhs? remember i'm always here for you. call me anytime you wana. (=
//althea! heys. see you at the spd camp yeahs? BRING THE HOUSE DOWN!!!
//mel! heys gurl. thanks for listening me outt today? felt tonns better... like a load of my mind? yeahhs. i duno larrs. but what you told me really makes sense... -cries and pulls hair.- im prob gona breakdown soon. haii. duno larrs. i'll jez prac my oboe... for jan concert. heys, hope "L" gona see you perform then. (= =) shall BrINg tHe hSe dOwN with our wonderful playing. love you lotts gurl.
//huihong! thx for the encourament and concern and yadaydayda. (=
//yueming! sorry for wuteva misunderstandings. jez glad we cld be friends again? (: take care ger.
omg. im dead tiried. so late le. better go sleep. tml then i continue? we'll see. nites.
11:48 PM*
maybe God have a reason to it.
i might nott know.
butt i'll sure endure it.
as long as it takes.
cuz if GOD brings me to it, he'll bring me through it.
heys people! had band today. (: was pretty alright... blew scales and stuffies. I dont care, jez as long i can improve myself. (: hehes. i was like telling mel that im happy that i've a oboe tutor... and she was like are you nutz?! cuz when my tutor come i'll hide under the table and yadaydayda. hehes. i think im already going nutz. if nortt, sooner or laytor. bleahs. "/ after that, when J8 with mel and huihong. yeapps. i told mel lots of stuff. yeash. i trust her that she'll shuddup about them. yeapps. from a-z. hehes. philbertt sms me and was like... want to ask any 6M people outt to watch movie or something? it's like shouldnt he be with samantha or something?!?! dorts. it turn out that he postpone it. rarrs?! this kind of kor also exist?! wuteva. (: asked him down to J8. but by the time he came i left le. teeehehhehes. tooo bad. you cant kill me?! -giggles- anyways, was stucked under this HDB flat cuz it was like rainning soooo chao heavily lorrs. to kill time... i called that silly boy philbert. yarpps. turn out that he found mel and huihong le. mms.. then asked him to pass the phone to huihong and mel. then suddenly this nigel appeared from nowhere and talk to me also?! -rolls eyes- he was like heys. remember me anortt. DUHZ! who would forget you? hahas. wuteva larrs. they [mel and huihong] was like wacking philbert with mel's drumstick! -.O dorts! sooo bad de. each time see him bully kor. aiyoz. and cant defend himself?! hahas. silly boy. hang up my hp... then when to the study korner there to wait for the rain to stop. suddenly i saw this stupid dog! omg. im like soooo SCARED?! I'm all alone there lors. nobody there. the HDB flat study corner was like so quiet. but besides there, where else could i go? :| but anyhows, i walked away before the dog came... i ended up at the bus stop. yarpps. walked home after that... THEN my silly jie called me and was like carrying umbrella for me? like heeeellloooo jie... it stop rainning le! dorts. mms. nth better to do? hahas. well, so i've updated youu guys on my day. yeapps. oh yesh: if somebody named aflino62@hotmail.com adds you on msn, dont accept.
Its an avanced virus that begins to slowly remove your documents then goes out
to all your hard drives. Send this to all people online in your msn list. kkaes? dont know for real or whatt... but better to be safe then to be sorry. (: tc guys and gb. (:
6:39 PM*
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
-yawns.- i just woke up. -_-" yeappies... jez plain tiried?! dotdotdot. dont know what to blog also. oh yeahs, there's band tml. 11-2pm. what a weird timing?! in between lunch time and stuffies. then again, i've oboe tution on friday. yeahs. cool. could make use of it soooo very badly. high time to brush up my scales and stuff. 0.-
//yixian! sorry larrs... was sleeping. don't angry? (: the next time when im online... we're play it yarrs? :) love you lotts!!
3:56 PM*
Monday, November 03, 2003
jez a simple "hi" from you would make my day.
heyheys. feeling kinda happy? duno why. hehehs. well. i found the mood to blog... so yarrs. shall go ijto detail about ystrday? (= basically it was out very 1st 1+1 sunday. felt guilty not evangelizing enough. even though there're people who brought friends along, they're christians. we're the light and the salt of the earth. so yars. i was saying brother pacer was acting everything right? yarrs.. he was like telling us e stry when Jesus was born. it's really nice? it made me realise the love of God was and IS that GREAT. yea. the amount is pain he beared on the cross of calvery is nothing to the pain we feel in our hearts nor the pain we feel in our bodies. yet we cant ren3 with it and could even think of doing stupid things. yeahhs. it kinda stirred my heart.. feel touching. yarpps. the next 1+1 sunday is on 1st sun of jan... yarps. and yesh! SPEEDLIGHT CAMP!! whos' going? im going. yarpps. heys united gurls. anyone going? (= my darlx ade. hope you're going yarrs? same to tiff. (= anyhows. i'll sign up next week. yepps. well, i better sign off now. take care people!
12:27 PM*
Sunday, November 02, 2003
lostt.
find me wont you?
i feel so helpless. jez cant help myself.
thanks alot for everything.
jez gona die during this holiday.
heyheys! i dont know why i dont have the mood to blog this few days... oh yarrs. gona go sch tml to APPEAL for the express thingie. so yars... bleahs. had 1+1 sunday today. pacer cld be some actor. lolx. he was like acting everything. even narating.[?] yarps. really nice and touching. great job there bro pacer! =) not feeling myself lately again?! anyhows, shldnt put personal stuff here. yarpps. my darlx piggy ade came late again. hehex. funnie larrs she. =) sylvia! heeelllloooo... im single canns? hahha. you arhxXx. =P cya`
8:08 PM*
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.perfectionist*
// chermaine
// eleven july nineteen ninety
// thirteen years
// musician` oboe . guitar
// torchlight . watchlight
ministry` lew
// adores ballroom dance
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.wishlist*
//hair to grow longer!! O.o
//get serious with sch work
//contacts
//closer walk with God
//let go of whats holding me back
//to grow taller![164cm]
//big fat brown teddy`
//lose weight! D:
//an oboe :D
//jean skirt
//more clothing larrs
//new school bagg
//be in express stream
//37decrease board shorts
//notebook for school year 2004
//be empowered more each day by God.
//necklace
//ear rings
//music score!!
-cannon in d major for oboe
//ripcurl or roxy wallet (:
//new shoes
//no more pimples! >.< yucks
//red roses! (: wheees.
.dearios*
//guestbook
6M`02
archive
huili`
timothy`
althea`
ann
//cherr`
//cherr
chii
germaine
jowell
lyn
lyn
michelle
pauline
philbert
wanxin
valerie
samantha
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