Saturday, November 15, 2003
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star that somewhere you are
Thinking of me too
Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you ever see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
would you see what's inside
Would you even care?
I just wanna hold you close
But so far all I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day
And the courage to say how much I love you
Yes I do!
I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
corazon
I can't stop dreaming of you
No puedo dejar de pensar en ti
I can't stop dreaming
Comoo te necesito
I can't stop dreaming of you
Mi amor, comoo te extrano
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
That you came up to me and said "I love you"
I love you too!
Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming with you endlessly
bleahs. soo sweet. yarrs. wuteveerr
11:10 PM*
youu make me believe that i was born to be invisable!
I AM:chermaine
I WANT: (:
I HAVE: greatt friends who makes my day! the best god silblings in the world. (: two thumbs up!
I WISH: check out my wishlistt 2003
I HATE: backstabbers. two face people. the list goes onn
I MISS: =| bleahs
I FEAR: dUno.
I HEAR:my voice ringing in my head
I SEARCH: for comfortt. urghh.
I WONDER:alots of things
I REGRET:nott studying hard enough
I LOVE:GOD. friends. god silblings. me. yeahhs.
I ACHE:(:
I ALWAYS: dont show my true feelings? cool. im such a great actress
I AM NOT: myself. bleahs.
I DANCE:when i feel like it
I SING: music
I CRY: frustrated. breakdwn. over stressed and pressured. blah.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: what i seems to be.
I WRITE: when i've the inspiratioN
I LOSE: errr.
I CONFUSE: bleahs.
I NEED:(:
I SHOULD: shuddup. -withdraw....
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Yes Or No...
x. You keep a diary: yea
x. You like to cook: what abt yes
x. You have a secret you have not shared with anyone:yea
x. You believe in love: yeapps.
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The weirdest person you know: al
The Loudest Person you Know: huihong and yueming. ahas. no offences
The Sexiest Person you Know: bleahs. duno
The Cutest Person you Know: dunO
The People that Knows the Most about you: God. people that i confide in with all my crapp and everything. oh well...
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Do You...?
Have a(any) crush(es): (:
Want to get married: :)
Get motion Sickness: no?!
Get along with your parents: :)
Like thunderstorms: -open eyes-
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NATURAL HAIR COLOR: dark dark brown under sunlighTt
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: same.
EYE COLOR:same
BIRTHPLACE: sing
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(FAVORITES )
NUMBER(s): hahas
COLOR(s): each colours have it's own beauty. let alone black and white. they're all almost nice
DAY(s):sat sun
MONTH(s): duNO nOv dEc jUlY?
SONG(s):classical. jazz. pOp. christiaN musizx
FOOD: (: anything.
SEASON:winter. awww... singapore no winter
SPORT: badmintOn
DRINK: waTer. pepsI. CoKe
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( PREFERENCES )
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT?: what abt boTH
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE?: boTH
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?: love them all to biTs
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? either
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( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? bleahs =|
HELPED SOMEONE? :) yea
BOUGHT SOMETHING? duhz
GOTTEN SICK? nehs
GONE TO THE MOVIES? nOpe
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? say... i skipped dinner agn! unless youu count eating at 5+ dinner
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? neh
TALKED TO AN EX? dorts.
MISSED AN EX? ewww.
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? hahas. nice one. JOurNaL wOmAn aka mRs pOh!!
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? mms
MISSED SOMEONE? :)
HUGGED SOMEONE? lil sis
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? nope
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? nehs
FOUGHT WITH UR CAT? what abt invisable cat?
10:57 PM*
happY biRTHdaY HuIHoNg! (X
30 more days! || nightmares turning more and more into reality. urghh.` maque vous tonns
sheese larrs. weiling says im going crazeh already! i agree. urghh. had some dream last nite! for the thousand time le if im right! yeahhs. i guess mel wld prob say im crazeeh also. urghh! what's happening to me? bleahs. anyhows... here's my wishlist 2003. yeapps!
-OP skirt!
-OP pink and white pencil box!
-roxy/ripcurl wallet!
-be a greatt oboeist.
-jean skirt!
-big teddy bear fer me to hug! [yeahhs. kiddish right? but i dont careee]
-pretty looking photo alume[?] for my photos!
-new sch bagg! mine spoiled le. ahahas.
-for current CG to UNITE!
-necklace/ring/ear ring!
-max lucado book.
-princess dairy-guild to life and princess in love.
4:46 PM*
Friday, November 14, 2003
31 more days! || tell me how much longer can i decieve myself?!
oh well. i did smile for the whole dayy... but it's fakee?! whartever. lots to blog but dont feel lyk blogging agn. whartts wrong with me. =|
jonathan: heyas. maybe it's jez yr wild imagination or whatever. if youu choose to think that way, i cant do anything right? it's youu and yourself that cann change the way things are. if youu think you're paraniod and acting like an idiot, yeahhs. change it thens. shalln't get too personal here. but jez remember, if youu are an idiotic crappy idiot, then why am i talking to youu? so yeahhs. think twice.
stuupid kor! :gosh. i dont know should i go to her partee or not... -_-" yeahh. sry larrs. silly bOy. youu cld had go home 1st? and youu arhs. shouldnt sleep sooo frigging late! knowing you're gona go outt today. kkaes. shallnt nag le. (: thanks for such a great day!
sheena!: sheese. feel lyk crying? urghh. it's horrible... like im gona jez explode or sth. prob it's my imagination or me being paraniod.. oh well. duno larrs. jez feeling sooooo shiitified lorrs. so yeahhs.
everyone else!: goodness sake!! phil's jez my kor larrs! not my darlxor wuteva. goshh. even ms noor mistook that! =| bleahs.
huihong!: cann i be the 1st to wish youu happy burthday!? (: hope im the 1st! sry that i cant come to your partee. utterly sry. =\ bleahs. smile aways yeahhs? God bless!
8:28 PM*
Thursday, November 13, 2003
32 more days! can't wait!
ladedumdum. okays. im like practically B-O-R-E-D!yeahhs. there's band tomms. gotta get up early. thanks TONS marns. it's like s'pose to be 11am then change to 10.30am?! practically sick?! kkaes. shall cut it. jez pray that jason wont be late?! wonder what he plans to do with me tomms with my horrible playing? oh well. it's not like i could help it? surely gona do winter wonderland with me. yeahhs. OH CRAPP. kkaes. i jez remembered that i'm s'pose to prac my scales!!!!! -screams- gotta push up. sighhs. oh well. hope jiaying forgets. cya`
10:23 PM*
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
wine`the kind kept for a long period of time, it'll become nicer and sweeter as the day passes; ice cubes`indeed it's hard and cold, but left outside in the heat it'll melt; rubber bands`as the days passes, it snap and break if tied too long. and yeahhs, im trying to express myself through this. i really wonder; i keep decieving myself, caught lost in the world of fantasy; lost contact with reality; where am i heading next i dont know. im in this 'battle'; and im no warrior; i cant fight this feeling anymore; and so im left all alone - wounded, save me wont youu. haiis?! gona die.
hey there! (: dont feel like blogging or i rather there's nothing to blog. feeling restless. -yawns- been thinking lots all over agn. rarrs. stuppid canns?! i cant type in peace? cant chat in peace? my stuppid younger sis like like bothering me!! rarr. wack my head somemore. -headache- rarrrs. wutever. dont care. she's gone. oh wel... shld i go bag to ats tomms? duno larrs. shall stop here. bye`
8:04 PM*
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
>MY....
>:x: name = chermaine
>:x: piercings = 1 each side
>:x: tattoos = nopes
>:x: height = im shortt and will grow more. thats all i'll say. (=
>:x: shoe size = mms. forgot.
>:x: hair color = dark brown under sunlight?
>:x: siblings = 2
>LAST...
>:x: movie you rented = like i dont rent any?
>:x: movie you bought = cant remember
>:x: song you listened to = unbreakable
>:x: song that was stuck in your head = wind beneath my wings and as the deer
>:x: cd you bought = errs
>:x: cd you listened to = duno. christian/classical i think.
>:x: person you've called = errrs.
>:x: person that's called you = nadira
>:x: tv show you've watched = ahahas. was boredd and watched some STUPID cartoon. bwahahas
>:x: person you were thinking of = ...
>DO...
>:x: you have a crush on someone = heys. tell me what do youu think?
>:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = hawaii? dont know larrs. but if i lived there, i ever get to know those great people!
>:x: you think about suicide = mms? what do youu think? see if youu could read my mind. (:
>:x: you believe in online dating = lame.
>:x: others find you attractive = eheheh?
>:x: you want more piercings = no ways. i dont find it cool
>:x: you like cleaning = cleaning whartt
>:x: you like roller coasters = not all?
>:x: you write in cursive or print = print.
>FOR OR AGAINST...
>:x: long distance relationships = against i think? unless a couple is sooo pro that they can live missing each other every second of the day? then it's for.
>:x: using someone = against
>:x: suicide = against? hahas.
>:x: killing people = AGAINST LARR
>:x: teenage smoking = against
>:x: driving drunk = against
>:x: gay/lesbian relationships = no objections? duno dun care.
>:x: soap operas = against. B-O-R-I-N-G
>HAVE YOU...
>:x: ever cried over a girl= wait. im a girl.
>:x: ever cried over a boy = tsk tsk.
>:x: ever lied to someone = im guai?
>:x: ever been in a fist fight = nope
>:x: ever been arrested = dorts.
>WHAT...
>:x: shampoo do you use = does anyone care what i use to bathe?!
>:x: shoes do you wear = youu know me well enough you should know
>:x: are you scared of = mms. fear GOD. ahahahs. nice one.
>NUMBER...
>:x: of times I have been in love? = well?
>:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = again, well?
>:x: of girls I have kissed? = im a girl? im not les? unless you count kissing my lil
sister good night?
>:x: of boys I have kissed? = none
>:x: of girls I've slept (in a bed) with? = hahas.
>:x: of boys I've slept (in a bed) with? = none!!!
>:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends = maybe 3
>:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = so happening!!
>:x: of scars on my body? = one
>:x: of things in my past that I regret? = not mugging hard enough
>DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
>:x: pretty= hurmphs
>:x: funny= ha ha ha. im sooooo funny
>:x: hot= what u thinko.,
>:x: friendly= yeah uh huhs.
>:x: amusing= depends
>:x: ugly= blalalala
>:x: loveable= lalalala
>:x: caring= uh huh
>:x: sweet= awww... im soooo swwwwweeeettt. muahahha. what u think
>:x: dorky= ehehehes
>FAVORITE:
>:x: 5 letter word: mms? duno
>:x: actor/actress: dontknows
>:x: Candy: none
>:x: Cartoon: SBSP? hahas. kiddish
>:x: Cereal: mms
>:x: Chewing gum: duno
>:x: Color(s): lots
>:x: Color nail polish: duno
>:x: Day of week: sat sun
>:x: Least fave day: duno
>:x: Flower: red roses
>:x: Jello flavor: mms. strawberry
>:x: Jewelry: ring!
>:x: Special skills/talents: eh
>:x: Summer/Winter: winter
>:x: Trampolines or swimming pools: trampolines
>|| PERSON WHO LAST.. ||
>:x: Slept in your bed: me me and me
>:x: Saw you cry: me me and me
>:x: Made you cry: what about thinking too much?
>:x: You went to the movies with: philbert. jowell leeying xx
>:x: Yelled at you: mom..? nag nag nag. oh well.
>:x: Sent you an email: duno
>|| Have you ever.. ||
>:x: Said "I love you" and meant it?: uh huhs
>:x: Gone out in public in your pajamas: hahas
>:x: Kept a secret from everyone: yepp
>:x: Cried during a movie: nehs
>:x: Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: no.
>:x: Planned your week based on the TV Guide: no
>:x: Been on stage: im in performing arts cca. so duhz
>:x: Been to New York: nopes
>:x: Been to California: nopes
>:x: Hawaii: no. i wish!
>:x: China: no. boring
>:x: Canada: nope
>:x: Europe: no
>:x: Asia: duh
>:x: South America: nope
>:x: Wished you were the opposite sex: no!
>:x: What time is it now? almost 7pm
>:x: Apples or bananas?: bananas
>:x: Blue or red?: reddd
>:x: Walmart or target?: wad? 0.o
>:x: Spring or Fall?: fall
>:x: What are you gonna do after you finish this?: eat
>:x: What was the last meal you ate?: a pineapple tart
>:x: High school or college?: college
>:x: Are you bored?: yesss
>:x: Last noise you heard?: sista's com
>:x: Last smell you sniffed?: duno
>:x: Last time you went out of state/province?: err
>|| FRIENDSHIP/LOVE ||
>:x: Do you believe in love at first sight?: what about a yes and a no?
>:x: Do you want children one day & if so, how
many?: im still sooo young
>:x: Most important thing to you in a friendship is: trust
>|| Other Info ||
>:x: Criminal record?: no
>:x: Do you speak any other languages?: nope. french would be nice!!
>:x: Last book you read: it's a girl thing?
>:x: Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: bear
>:x: Thing you dislike about yourself the most: well.
>:x: Worst feeling in the world: depression?
>:x: Who you love: God! everybody
>:x: Who you miss: ...
>|| You ||
>:x: Nickname(s): maine
>:x: Initials: mms?
>:x: How old do you look?: ask my friends
>:x: How old do you act?: duno. myself
>:x: Glasses/Contacts: contacts. i want!
>:x: Braces?: no
>:x: Do you have any pets?: fish
>:x: You get embarrassed: do something wrong
>:x: What makes you happy?: shopping. talking. out with my friends. go to church
>:x: What upsets you?: ..
>|| Finish the sentence: |
>:x: I Love to... sleep, eat, shop, read.
>:x: I Miss... myself. wahahah
>:x: I Wish... OP skirt and wallet!! and jean skirt!!
>:x: I Hope... to get into a better class in year 2005
>:x: I'm Annoyed by... idiotic idiots
>:x: I Am... me me and me
>:x: I Want to Be... happy!
>:x: I Would Never... commit a crime
>:x: I'd Rather... go shopping
>:x: I Am Tired of... this crappy painn
>:x: I Will Always be... here when you need me. i promise
>|| Have you ever.. ||
>:x: Thought you were going to die: hahas. im so healthy
>:x: Wanted to Run away: hahas
>:x: Flunked a grade: nope.
>:x: Skipped a grade: it'll be cool
5:23 PM*
youumakemeworrysoomuch.ohwell.whatcannido.
hey hey!~ feeling reaaally happy today! it's been a while since im grinning upsidedwn like an idiot! hahas! went for maths remedial todayy. yeappies. was okay larrs. (= after that, chased that silly kor as usual! haha. like a lil kidd liddat. hahas. i duno why but i think it's the way we greet each other? hehez. since p5/6 it's been like that. haha. philbertt.jowell.huihong made my day so greatt. hahas. thankew guys! went j8 with them.. see them eat mac. was so tempting that i "stoled" huihong and philbert's fries. hahas. they dont mind. so yeahhs. philbertt said that depends on what i wear that the skirtt is nice?! im like.. i ask youu to choose for meeee larrs. he was like protesting but i dont wear skirtt!!! kor! who also know youu dont wear skirt?! haha. i really wana that OP skirtt and wallet lots! but it's sooo ex! wana them for christmas! went bagg to ats... saw my crazeh barney ennie playing her violin. sooo style! gosh! im sooo proud of you darlx mei! and then philbert was like ruby's cute! -bonk!- there he goes agn! hahas. bwahhaah. we pangseh huihong.. jowell and philbert accompany me to see ms lee! (= soo nice of youu! after that they walked me home. ahahas. no wrong ideas yeahhs? they wanted to go bagg to school for no reason so yeahhs. walked me home also. =) well. im tiried. feel like slping. hehs. so yeahhs. be going outt with philbert and jowell to get huihong's prezzie tomms. yeapps. buaiz!
thank you Jesus for you're my wind beneath my wings. hahas. im still crazeh about this song! i've two choices:to go to huihong's party and enjoy myself or to be a good girl and give up my funn and go for ms and give my time to God. Dear Lord, i pray that you'll help me to make my decision. i wana go for both but i could only make it to one. Help me i pray. In Jesus name, amen!
4:37 PM*
Monday, November 10, 2003
to truly love somebody is to know almost everything about him. like the way he brushes his teeth, who knows that he might brush another way? or even how he looks like when he's sound asleep or in pajamas. youu dont need to spend a night with him till the next day, but just being together for the whole day would be good enough. to truly love someone is to stand all their crapp and rubbish.
-bro pacer. well. i edited a little. (: that's what he told me weeks back. quite true though.
9:10 PM*
do youu lyk the feeling of youu caring for someone and they dont bother to shower youu back the same amount or even more care, concern and love back to youu? obviously it's a no. surely you'll be hurtt and heartbroken am i rightt? so yeahhs. each time when they're in trouble, youu bother to a take step towards them and asure them that they'll be alright. yeah sure they listen. but did they bother to say thank you and when it was your turn, did they bother to help youu out?
cuz the you is me. a friend could break your heartt more then an enemy would do.
-screams!!!- OMG!!! GOSH!! i can't believe im sooo frigging shortt!! -rolls eyes- wenwei's like so much taller then me now?! jez like in 2 weeks he grown sooo much! me? still the same height! frigging shortt! gosh! i better grow taller siax!! hahas.
i went back to school today to see the posting of class and buy my school books. 2a1. yeahhs. most of the 6M'sians who are in pss were posted to 2e2!!! dorts. feel so felt out?! i miss the old days. yeahhs. running on the track field, all the funn joy laughter. thank goodness tht silly philbert is in pss to make me laugh? hahas. they're in J8 now. should had gone with them. but i'll be like the only girl there. yeahhs. so here i am lorrs. be going outt with him after band on weds to j8! (: hehes. duhz not jez twoofus larrs. he's gona help me choose the op skirtt. wheees. help me see which one nicer. loveyoukor! i hope year 2004's gona be a better year? hahas. yeapps.
talking about year 2004, i cant wait! got jan's concert! yays. brudder said that he might be going. (: then that stupid philbert korr i havent asked him yet. yays. i will practice veryveryvery HARD. yeahs. i promise. hopefully good enough for a small solo part?! hahas. a moment of glory and fame?! haha. talking crapp. also, i really HOPE there's gonna be this overseas international thingie. it's gona be funn, buti'llmissyouu. haiis. duno larrs. then there'll be 1+1 sun agn! so much to look ahead for. ohs. i dread to be a sl tho. but i hope jason's still gonna be a oboe tutor. yeah! herox!! (:
this hols.. gona be a very burnout one yett fun?! kkaes. duno what am i talking abt. but im sure gona die with sooo many scores to practice! nxt yr gortt guitar test so yeahhs. cant wait to go grade 2. yeapps. grade 8 is like whao! chimonology! but it's really nice lorrs. like the blue moon.. so jazzy. still got others. yeapps. nxt week.. im gona be playing for the cellgrp. yeahhs. well. dwn and outt. gotta study?! dorts! noo moooood. haiis. oh weeell... mum's naggin. cya`
12:38 PM*
Sunday, November 09, 2003
cuz i know we'll find the way together in the end.
I went to Plaza Singapura yesterday. How it changed. As time goes by, everything changed. Memories of the past flooded me one by one?! Is it good or bad? I don't know. But frankly, i dont feel a thing anymore. yarpps. it all just become partt of a memory to keep and all the in past. if youu ask me, i think i'm living in a world of my own now. think im gona go nuts. "/ maybe mel and sheena knows why? hahas. why am i running away? yeah. the more i think the more complicated it getts. it just dont make sense. nvm if youu dont know what im talking aboutt. (: that silly philbertt is sick. =\ what season of the year is it? people getting sick. oh well. take care philbertt. (: anyhows, church was great today. yeahhs. im going forr camp. cantt wait. have to pitch tent. erms. i dont know how to pitch tent! slyvia's going. tiff n al are going. my darling piggy is going also. (: hahas. it'll be fun but yeahhs. whatever. hahas. oh well. shall stop here. take care.
7:32 PM*
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.perfectionist*
// chermaine
// eleven july nineteen ninety
// thirteen years
// musician` oboe . guitar
// torchlight . watchlight
ministry` lew
// adores ballroom dance
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.wishlist*
//hair to grow longer!! O.o
//get serious with sch work
//contacts
//closer walk with God
//let go of whats holding me back
//to grow taller![164cm]
//big fat brown teddy`
//lose weight! D:
//an oboe :D
//jean skirt
//more clothing larrs
//new school bagg
//be in express stream
//37decrease board shorts
//notebook for school year 2004
//be empowered more each day by God.
//necklace
//ear rings
//music score!!
-cannon in d major for oboe
//ripcurl or roxy wallet (:
//new shoes
//no more pimples! >.< yucks
//red roses! (: wheees.
.dearios*
//guestbook
6M`02
archive
huili`
timothy`
althea`
ann
//cherr`
//cherr
chii
germaine
jowell
lyn
lyn
michelle
pauline
philbert
wanxin
valerie
samantha
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