Saturday, December 20, 2003
every second of life is full of choices;
it's all up to you to make the right choice.
to hold on or to let go what your heart desire;
it all just depend in yourself.
i might live to the promise once made;
or to break through to be set free with God's strength.
the path ahead seems unclear and twisted;
but i will let go whatever i need to for my utmost for his highest.
no matter how tough the going gets;
i'll still praise God forever.
i'll depend upon him for his direction;
and maybe for now i'll hold on and keep in prayer.
a promise that once made might be broken;
im sorry cuz i dont think i could live to it forever.
i surrender my all before youu Lord;
take it and amen.
iloveyouu.
maybe he's right. maybe i didn't surrender all to God. -guilty look.
really sorry God. it's like one thing so hard to let go? -points up.
but yeahh, like i said on top; i will give my utmost for his
highest and will let go whatever that holds meback from loving God
more then anything in the world. yeappos, sounds mushy right? but
who cares, i seriously love God. could never imagine life without Almighty. (:
and seriously, im sorry larrs berty. didn't mean to throw all my feeling
onto youu yesterday... plus i only know youu for like eh a few days only?
kkaes, i admitt im really madd and have a loose screw on my head cuz
like i said it should go into my dairY.
im prob getting dumber as the day passes and i dont know if i still can
get my a1s` cuz i practically forgot almost all the science facts and
stuffies. im gona be in trouble next year larrs... could imagine those
behind me studying their brains out trying to outbeat me and
overtake my position in class next year. or even; how to make it
to a science class in year 2005? fine, im not being proud or
whatever; jez my thoughts. it really puzzles me why some people act
as your friewn and crapp behind your back. yeahh betrayers you call that?
they dont even try to understand youu a single bit at all. like why i study
so hard? i THOUGHT friends are to encourage you and not to
discourage you in whatever you do. maybe not all friends;
some are jez so fake and jez a whole load of crapp. kkaes, im not
scolding anyone. jez plain reflections of the whole year. yeapps.
year 2003 almost over and christmas is coming and everything...
so yeahh. forget whatever that happened this year and yeappos,
start afreash. let go of whatever that holds back to a wonderful
friendship. (: i guess i changed lots after speedlight camp. maybe more
torlerent and patience perhelps maybe more loving to the people around
me? like amanda? =X really, no offence. the way she express her emotions...
eh.. a little too scary larrs. it really got on my nerve that i ingore her. i dont
blame her for throwing my book back? yeahh. i learn to love everyone
around me. esp to honour my mum and dad more. i could say that again. but one thing never change is that im still in my little world? like the song empower me - nobody knows me better then youu. (: true enough. what brother pacer told me over the phone that day was true... you cant hide your thoughts from God. share with him or not, he knows every single one of them. yeahhs. im trying to figure out how to evangelise to my friends? give them time i guess. well. a little more about
speedlight camp. i guess im missing it lotts and esp the beach. i was jacq angel. funn! ahahs. wished my bestie was there but who cares... she came back with a silver! wheees. love her lotts to bitts. (: no wrong ideas. ahahas. camp came to an end before i knew it.
am camp sick. and yeahhs, maybe i was proud before. o.O i admitt. but i learnt it really doesnt matter what stream a person is in. eh.. no offence larrs. even though i know that; i'll still study hard to strive for my goal. yeapp. wna go acjc/rjC
next time. maybe pigglet's jc saJc. well; far ahead. :) hahas. so yeahhs. im really so blessed by God for everything. till that im the logistic ic in band? was caught shocked. trust me. i rolled my eyes today when mr lim told me that. perhelps
to break the habit of being late. praise God amen. well. im sure this is the longest entry ever. enough to entertain youu guys. ahahs. well, God bless youu peeps.
sending all hUgz and kiSSes to everyone. loveyouu.
6:10 PM*
Friday, December 19, 2003
crapp. i need corn syruppppppp! -bounce and scream. oh welllllll.... bongs. been thinking much lately. have band tomms too. s'pose to be slping now. made finish allie's prezzie. lazy to type and everything. i only know that yeahh, arent myself. rubbishing agn and i know. oh well. i found out far too much things le. i hate hate hate it. rarrs. byes
11:56 PM*
kkaes. shall drop a few lines before i get going. went shopping today. yeapps. was like smsing shuberty for like almost the whole day. yeapps. =X gna faint went bill comes. who caress. =XX kkaes, whartever. frm one thing to another. hahas. got the stuff i needed and yeahh. shall type laytor. gtg and rush the cards and prezzie. cya`! (: ilu
8:39 PM*
Thursday, December 18, 2003
heys! IM BACK! (: ahahas. im missing the beach back in sentosa! really! goshh. well, this camp sure rocks my world marns. I LOVE GOD! (: praise his name forever in good and bad times and i will give him my utmost for his highest! (: yeapps. shall fill you guys in nows. -.- missing camp nows...
Honestly, I guess I went to sign up for Speedlight Camp 2003 was to relax, have fun and to seek God's face? duno larrs. left home for speedlight camp feeling weird i guess. I was put into the group call DAN meaning JUDGE. anyhows, was cool with my grping. jez felt home and off to camp with far too much thoughts in my head which i guess felt me depressed? hahahs. stuppid me right? oh well. i met tiffy gurlie at 11+am. was late. sorry gurl. -_-""" went to jalan jalan... went OP. i wanted to get the boarding shorts but it's too ex. whartever. i love the black one! super cool. when we were abt to go to sportlight, it was like alrdy almost 12. so yeahhs, couldnt get my stuff! -scream. rushed to church and saw amanda from the bus. goshh! tiff ACTUALLY MISTOOK mathea for her MAID! -rolls eye. hahas. went off the bus and was like running and walking and then i fell dwn. bwahahas. silly me. went into my grp DAN and my elder was ivan. leader was cordelia.[the BEST trible leader speedlight have! (:] asst leader was ting tuan aka tt. yeappos. had my tagg and stuff and blahblahblah AND at last we were off to sentosa which is our promise land. we are what you'll call the modern isralites.[?] yeapp. set our tent up. i belong to tent 10. TENT 10 RAWKS! (: and cool, the tent was up without any guy's helpo. aahhas. kkaes, whartever. went for P&W and had grp time followed by dinner. goshh. i LOVE this part: the valley of darkness. so fun! THREE CHEERS FOR GAMES COM! (: it's about this light stick that is the lamp unto our feet which is God's word. goshh, couldnt believe we fell for the "devil's" trick and change for the torch which dont work! yeahh. so the moral of this game is that satan always try to tempt us and decieve us and if we're not strong, we'll be the victims. yeahh. after that had supper and debrief. the COOLEST thing is that i couldnt sleep. slpt for two hours. so pardon me im looking like a panda now. duno how i can try this much. woke up at 3+ and stone arnd till 5 and went to the beach. THANKEW CHUN LECK! or i'll be dying inside the tent if he didnt allow me to go to the beach. hahas. i love the SKY! sooo NICE! (: cool and nice also. had devotion on the 10 commanments. yeapps. then makan and had the 3 Quest. eh i dont like the last one larrs. wished i shuddup?? O.o i thought bro pacer was trying to trick us or sth so i went i dun wna stop cuz success only comes to those who never gives up. i feel like evaporating when he explained why. -.O so me and my bigg mouth. sorry God. cuz i almost slpt during bro sam sermon. had dinner inside there too. and it rain lorrs. our tents were like ehh flooded! shubert! thanks soooo very much for helping us yeahhs? thinko you shld be the best male camper in our tribe! love DAN lots! went back to campsite and perpared for tribal day. ooo.. TRIBAL DAY RAWK! and yeahh.. went back and Zzzz. who knows tht the FOLLOWING day it rain agn! -.O was woken up and had to run to the monorail there for sheltar. everything was delayed cuz of the rain. but i thank God for the rain anyhows. (: we had our food w/o brushing our teeth and i drank coffee. hahas. no milo le. 1st time lorrs. cool. then devotion then played KiLL tHe sPIder. DAN got 3rd! (: kkaes, then it was sermon agn. Satan's Paln for you by brother pacer. it's really powerful lorrs this msg. had breakthro. i cried cuz God touched me? was actually alright then bro pacer said sth which hit me soooo hard like a rock which i was praying for the leaders and i started to cry. the tears were uncontrollable lorrs. but after all that. was so hyper for the whole night. i only slpt at 3+am. yeah. and woke up at duno whart time looking like a bigg fat panda today and when pacer greeted me i didnt hear? -.O so blur. tht he had to say morn for the 2nd time. lols. and i couldnt believe it's all gna over in a few hrs time. sad i guess? hahas. had pic taken and shubert kinda exposed the last few of it. -.O well, i dont blame youu. not your fault, youu arhs, gimme 10 whole bucks fer whart? ahahas. you arhs. good thing i never take. (: must come over to LEW kkaes. you make me laugh sooo much! hahas. keep me happy which your lame jokes. kaes lar, not really lame. but thanks for everything people of DAN! (: gna miss u all lots. so yeahh, im gna slp now. tired. shall wake up early tomms to make christmas prezzie and cards for eh.. .: bro pacer/sis allie/joanne! .:limin/chun lake/leaders of the usher/sHubErtY. .:excell/current cell. .: god silblings. yeapps. well. duno larrs. making sth which i duno how to make. how cool. hahas. whartever. nites. i love youu.
9:17 PM*
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.perfectionist*
// chermaine
// eleven july nineteen ninety
// thirteen years
// musician` oboe . guitar
// torchlight . watchlight
ministry` lew
// adores ballroom dance
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.wishlist*
//hair to grow longer!! O.o
//get serious with sch work
//contacts
//closer walk with God
//let go of whats holding me back
//to grow taller![164cm]
//big fat brown teddy`
//lose weight! D:
//an oboe :D
//jean skirt
//more clothing larrs
//new school bagg
//be in express stream
//37decrease board shorts
//notebook for school year 2004
//be empowered more each day by God.
//necklace
//ear rings
//music score!!
-cannon in d major for oboe
//ripcurl or roxy wallet (:
//new shoes
//no more pimples! >.< yucks
//red roses! (: wheees.
.dearios*
//guestbook
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archive
huili`
timothy`
althea`
ann
//cherr`
//cherr
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jowell
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