Saturday, December 27, 2003

i don't want a lot for christmas
there is just one thing i need
i dont care about the presents
underneath the christmas tree
i just want you for my own
more than you could ever know
make my wish come true
all i want for Christmas
is you ..

i dont want a lot for christmas
there is just one thing i need
i dont care about the presents
underneath the christmas tree
i dont need to hang my stocking
there upon the fireplace
santa claus wont make me happy
with a toy on christmas day
i just want you for my own
more than you could ever know
make my wish come true
all i want for christmas
is you ..
you baby

i wont ask for much this christmas
i wont even wish for snow
im just gonna keep on waiting
underneath the mistletoe
i wont make a list and send it
to the north pole for saint nick
i wont even stay awake to
hear those magic reindeer click
cos i just want you here tonight
holding on to me so tight
what more can i do
baby all i want for christmas
is you ..
you ..

all the lights are shining
so brightly everywhere
and the sound of children's
laughter fills the air
and everyone is singing
i hear those sleigh bells ringing
santa wont you bring me the one i really need
wont you please bring my baby to me ..

oh i dont want a lot for christmas
this is all im asking for
i just wanna see baby
standing right outside my door
oh i just want you for my own
more that you could ever know
make my wish come true
baby all I want for Christmas
is you ..
all i want for Christmas is you baby

9:36 PM*

you're that star;
that shines so brightly on a dark and cloudy night.
you're a precious star;
that lights up my day when i'm down.
you're always be that outstanding star to me;
that shine so brightly that outshines the rest.
you're my star;
i believe you're a star;
that could shine better then the rest;
only if you would to believe in yourself.

6:51 PM*

Friday, December 26, 2003

eh. the lazy me lazy to send out ecards. bwahahas. sorry` so yarrs. and i got my jeann skirtt le!!!! soo cool. and yes, anyone who wna watch the christmas bet agn mgs me kkaes? sheena and i will be there. yeapps! will tata!

8:36 PM*

Thursday, December 25, 2003

and we celebrate the birth of Christ` (:

hey all! merry christmas! (: well. don't know how you all felt about this years' christmas... but to me, it's a totally meanningful one or even diff. maybe cuz after speedlight camp and everything. it marks the ending of the year which is like 7 more days to school. maybe 8. yeapps.

to begin with, this year was like a totally mess and everything. why? mainly cuz it's 1st year in secondary one. totally lost even though i knew my sisters' friends and her plus my primary school mates. so what? we were splitted into diff classes and streams. stress and pressure, everything you name it. it was like whao to me when i 1st saw my position in class during mid-year. 2nd. boy am i happy. as any of my church pals would guess, i'll be bouncing upside down already. (: bet sheena would go the tigger attack agn. hahas. studied like nuts despite all those people around whom i never really considered as my friends jeering me. jealousy i guess, but then again. look at me, im jez a gurl like anyone. what's there to be jealous? and maybe thanks to them also, i realised maybe what they say: i guess its true. prideee. yeah. i hate that word and surprise surprise. it got me in my studies. >.O really sorry guys yeahhs? i will help youu guy in your studies and whatever whenever i could. yeapps. 2nd in level in sa2 agn. you bet i wasnt happy with what i got cuz i couldnt go to ex. tears. BUT it'll cuz me to work harder and yesh i will.

christmas seems esp. special and diff to me cuz of certain things i guess. people like shubert whom i knew through speedlight camp, surely made this festive special. why? cuz of him and certain things he told me, i guess im starting to think less. i guess so. (: guess u know what i mean larrs. thanks. esp. sheena
my bestie and twinnie! yeahh. someone i could lean and depend on and even has my password to my edairy account! ahahs. it's just like a few months only and thanks to God, we're best of friends and everything. thankos for the presents! sooo sweeet!!! and yr ears and yars. love you. bro pacer for his advice or whatever u call it. (: thanks. and my ministry. love them all marns. im like blur and everything in the beginning with no training. thank them for bearing with me. my utmost for his highest! and surely without GOD, christmas would not be christmas. yeahhs. (: not forgeting that to know the true meaning of christmas! [thats what i performed today. (:] doesnt matter how many presents u get. hahas.

so yeahhs. pretty much year 2003 wasnt really my year. people close to me would know why larrs. i guess time to let it pass by me? dont know. to me, im still in my little innocent world. far too innocent. many things had happened and i dont know. yeapps. i guess this might be one of those more meaningful entries in my blogg? okay, maybe a little personal. so yars. this is me. (: the girl's life. smile. i love youu all to bits. thanks for presents and cards and smses. and everything. a girl woken from a dream. hahas. talk abt dreams, dreamt weird dreams. O.o freaky and scary? hahas. whartever. (: bye

10:54 PM*

Wednesday, December 24, 2003

if you ever forget how important and precious you are;
ask me and i will tell you.
you're my brightest star;
the world's most precious gem that no one can buy;
you mean a world to me.
you're the reed of my oboe;
without it my instrument is useless.
trust me;
gurl misses you.

heys! to those whom i fail to give cards/presents to... am really sorry! been busy and out almost the whole day... and my twinnie!! goshh... you're so SWEEEETTTT!!!! -.O couldnt believe you made sooo much for me? love youu soo much! i got youu yr prezzie and made yr card le. (: but it's the thought tht counts right...? -giggles.
kkaes, it's CHRISTMAS TOMORROW!!! smiles. well. am happy and yarrs... dont know how to describe how i truly feel? maybe mixed up. sheena wld know why. bleahsss! kaes, am crapping or whatever. actually, there's nothing much to blogg... yeahhs. so shall end here lar. merry christmas and God bless! love you and tigger miss u.

10:27 PM*

Tuesday, December 23, 2003

you're the treble clef;
im the music note.
they both can't live without each other;
or no music will be produce.
thats how important you are.
dont you know that?

-bounce bounce. rarrs? i cant get my twinnie! wna go shopping with her before the christmas bet! geez. i really want to go out with her today but my parents wanted me to take the flu jabb?! -scream. yucks. anyone would know i hate it lots! but guess what? thank God i didnt had to take it in the end. oh well, maybe for today. hope never. then was s'pose to go jack's place to makan. eh. change of plans. ended up in J8. i didnt manage to get my darling anything! rars. talk about going out tomms with my darl which i wna to... cuz im gong to ikea to get something to make her present and then to jackson marketplace. yeahh. anyone know where's it?? so yarrs... be out the whole day!!! -sighs. and i lost my ear rings.

had BBQ yesterday at jo's hse. wheees. was really FUN! i found out some stuff! -winks at kelvin. hahas. ade told his secret to me! dorts! -waggs finger at youu. naughty gurl. and then BEN IS SEC TWO GOING SEC THREE!! ._____________O goshh?! i thought he's sec one! plus he's been in my cell for dont know how long. hahas. crazy me. >.O hehs. after that ade started messin arnd with the piano and i messed arnd with the guitar. so cool! (:

oh well. had lots to blogg but i forgot... and plus don't know what gone into my parents. nagging agains! ).< and erm twinnie! if you're reading this, i wna meet u at 8.45am in church then we go centrepoint on thursday kkaes? loveyou! (:

10:00 PM*

presents/cards to make/get
.allie` [left the card]
.alina`
.alicia`
.pacer` and limin
.sheena!
.sylvia!
.yiyi*
.tiffio*
.joanne*
.kenny*
.ben!
mms. which leader i missed out?

ecards to send`
shubert
philbert
cell people
timothy
huili
jacq [mms. cuz i dont think i'll see her]
eh did i miss out anyone??

8:41 PM*

i love my twinnie to bits! (: hahahs. sry cant go out with you gurl. :( anyhows, gtg and make yr prezzie! love ya!

3:57 PM*

Sunday, December 21, 2003

uncoutable tears shed each night;
going off to dreamland with a world of confusion.
everyday seems to be like a dream;
a little girl floating around in the world of reality.
i finally found the truth;
but will it set me free or pain me even more?
to hold on or to let go?
i realise its truth;
im too dependent on you;
far more off then God;
is it too late?
and tonight i wonder who's to blame;
me or you?
and i wonder why i met you in the first place;
it's all you to blame for all hurts i've face.
iloveyoutoomuchtohate you.(:
cuz there's a place in my heart you always be;
always and forever;
every night i still dream of you;
i still feel you there...

he says it's time to let go. is it? my twinnie says let your heart decide.
im utterly confusued. kkaes, im full of thoughts these days. sad till the
world can see it? bro pacer says when you're sad the world can sense it.
he sensed it. yeahh, he knows it. bleahhs. i hate it. i dont meant to be sad.
i wna be happy and bouncy... like tigger! sadly he lost his bounce for
goodness how long in one of the cartoon. im s'pose to be like him right? kkaes,
whartever. for all i know you dont care anymore. i cry; i laugh; i smile. lame.

went to church today. how cool, sheena wore the same stuff as me! today is
our twinnie day? bwahahas. cool. im thinking of suggesting cell tees for our cell.
eh, what should our cell be called? pigglet 2's cell is j.g. aka joshua generation.
what about our cell? COG? children of God? i think it's cool. for some reasons
we think kinn crushed on phoebe? bwahahs. cool enough. never in my life had i
seen him so frigile before when he lost his POSB nets card. not till i found it for him.
it's funny anyway when he found it. ahahs. i slipped it into his pocket. he was like
eh okays. it's in here! hahas, funny. knowing certain people surely has been a GREAT
blessing to me? yeapps. esp my twinnie. (: i love her to bitts. thanks for bearing me
with everything. (: love all my brothers and sistas in christ. yeappos! :) they sure make my life greater with jOy. jokers like berty. bwahahas. kkaes. almost everyone was like crying their hearts out to God. me? like an ice cube. no warmth no feeling.
i didnt open myself enough to recieve his powerful annionting. ive been thinking LOTS after camp. things i should let go off. bert says its time to. i dont know. maybe he's right. oh well. prayer thens. -.- time to stand on my two feets.
shall take bouncy baby stepps thens. i wonder what syl pigglet 2 n TWINNIE got! ._______________O hahas. went heeran with them. leave them after i went 37o. yeapps. i WANT THT SHORTSSSS!!!! -screams. but it's so ex. oh well. sooo nice too! plus tht spag strip pink top! wna it for christmas! hahas. well, end up pacer's prezzie was sweets. no time to make. yeapps. gtg. bye.

7:41 PM*

.perfectionist*

// chermaine
// eleven july nineteen ninety
// thirteen years
// musician` oboe . guitar
// torchlight . watchlight
ministry` lew
// adores ballroom dance
-

.wishlist*

//hair to grow longer!! O.o
//get serious with sch work
//contacts
//closer walk with God
//let go of whats holding me back
//to grow taller![164cm]
//big fat brown teddy`
//lose weight! D:
//an oboe :D
//jean skirt
//more clothing larrs
//new school bagg
//be in express stream
//37decrease board shorts
//notebook for school year 2004
//be empowered more each day by God.
//necklace
//ear rings
//music score!!
-cannon in d major for oboe
//ripcurl or roxy wallet (:
//new shoes
//no more pimples! >.< yucks
//red roses! (: wheees.

.dearios*

//guestbook
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archive
huili`
 timothy`
 althea`
 ann
//cherr`
//cherr
chii
germaine
jowell
 lyn
lyn
michelle
 pauline
  philbert
  wanxin
 valerie
 samantha